.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

I can be in fear,

but I know that I shall not be afraid.

Life is fragile

Human hearts are weak

People stumble and fall

They live and pass away

What's that install for me, my Lord?

Nothing am I,

only to please you.

Learning. And much to discover.

And I know you're at work

Reconciliation, only possible by You.

They may not understand,

but what that matters is You and I.

And in my heart I do somewhat forget at times,

but yet I recall and repent,

You are the One.

Genesis Jorris 10:07:00 AM

Repent sinners,
only then can you have life.

It's mind-blowing.
Hard to swallow.
Yet truth will set me free,
even if it the facts are heart-piercing.

Accept the feedbacks.
Change.
It doesn't matter how others think about you.
It is not about how embarrassing and upsetting the matter is about.
The truth is,
if you're in the wrong and there's a need to change,
you make the effort to change and grow out from it.

Stop putting the blame on others,
stop self-pitying and asking why.
It may not be an angel's act,
but it in fact is a conscious act of irresponsbility:
Bear your faults, do not shrink the burden.

More effort.
More self-awareness.
More transformation.

To glorify God, I got to start with the little things of my life.
To do greater things, the basics got to be fix.
Stop ignoring these areas, because in your heart, you know them well.
You can never enter the gates of heaven,
unless you've walked through the narrow gate.

Learn from mistakes,
change for the better.
Win their respect once again,
build the relationship that had been forego.
Regretting what you've done in the past is not enough,
you got to learn to do something good now and thereafter.
It will be recovered,
now it's a test of faith and discipline.
Humble yourself to taste the hardship,
accept it and move on.

Yet another test,
to praise Him.

Genesis Jorris 4:11:00 PM

Broken.

A broken and conflicted heart,

O God, thou shall not despise.

When I face these adversities,

I look upon my weaknesses and found myself in shame.

I struggle and fall apart against these judgement,

I cannot contain.

The pain pierces through my heart.

How in a world would someone so close, yet someone so far?

I don't understand.

O God, lead my questions to peace.

Why.

Genesis Jorris 10:13:00 AM

Unexpected.

Looking at the path that I've crossed many,
the road that I've walked plenty,
it's definitely an unexpected phase of my life,
definitely not one that I expect 4 years ago.

Walking with God, is enriching.
And for the past 4 years and a little?
I've experience life far beyond what I had, before.
The journey with Him is breath-taking,
you have to taste it with your own bud to know what I mean.

The decision to come to know God,
is definitely worthwhile and the best so far.
Reflecting upon my past, my present, and my future,
I cannot imagine my life, without Him.
Perhaps you may say I am not independent,
but I got to admit I can't live without God.

Imagine this -

Without God, I will lose the purpose in working:
Working becomes a chore.
Working becomes a mundane thing.
I may just work for the sake of money and status.
At the end of the day I will only question why?

Without God, I will have indulge in sinful life habits:
I might have pursue relationships that do not last.
I will never understand what's love all about,
maybe I'll develop my own philosophy of love.

Without God, I could never see the value of my family:
The one whom He chose to put me in her womb,
how precious is she who is pregnant with me for 10 months.
The conflicts, the quarrels and the disagreements,
I would have gave up and soaked in bitterness,
if it hadn't been God who melted my heart.

Without God, I could never find myself:
Who I really am, what's my identity?
I may continue to fight so hard to gain popularity.
I would continue to strive so hard for the sake of nothing.
I would have ignore the fact that I am the daughter of God.

God put me in this unexpected journey,
one that I anticipate.
It's not a bed of roses, definitely.
But surely it is one that is rewarding. Have you embarked on yours? =)

God is Good.

Genesis Jorris 10:46:00 AM

USHER MEGA CAMP 2009

So you've heard of the Mega from Macdonalds?

I bet you didn't know, the Mega of Ushers came in all the way before Mac brought in theirs.

And once again! We are launching our new Mega..

Even more Mega than ever, the Usher Mega CAMP!

Woohoo~

I am so glad that people are excited for the camp,

and I believe that God is gonna rock our camp on 31st October!

It just so happens that it's on halloween, we didn't plan it to be in the first place. Ha.

It's gonna be exciting.

Ushers gonna have a taste of what's the real camping is all about...

We're staying in tents!

Hey hey, it's not that we don't have the money to stay in chalets..

I hope you do know that renting tents ain't any cheaper than bungalows huh!

Furthermore, we're getting 8 6-men tents in total,

with battery lamps and huge mats to watch the stars in the sky...

BBQ you name it all,

we're having steaks and bacon with golden needle mushrooms. (The highlights!)

And morning devotion in our teams...

Won't that be great? Coming together to pray and seek the Lord?

Not forgetting Praise and worship, BY THE BEACH!

It's going to be a great time exalting God in the utmost nature of Singapore.

(I AM SO EXCITED, I AM SERIOUS. hahaha.)

We're having creative learning together yea?

Learning values of Ushers via a Mega game that's gonna involve us traveling from the east to town area! Running around, overcoming challenging stations, won't that be great!

Appreciation Night in the evening after buffet dinner.

Great time to appreciate each other =)

In good mood now.

Genesis Jorris 3:03:00 PM

All the way from Jurong East, Jorris Ng scored another 3-pointer!

And home-run woohoo~

Some crazy things happen yesterday,

and there were Abigail, Liping, Joycelyn, Jess, Joleen, Bingquan, Daniel among the few.

We proceeded to the basketball court to burn some fats,

after our sinful steamboat at Jobb's place.

A madness MBA wanna-bes team compete against each other.

And some highlights were:

1. Ball rolled into the BIG drain with Bingquan rescuing it. His heroic jump off the drain bars were awesome and "shuai dai le". The rest were still trying to look for a torchlight.

2. Daniel performed his butt dance halfway in the match to feature his calm style of playing basketball. Unfortunately, age got on his way and he nearly sprained his butt. Limping on the way home after the match at 9.30pm.

3. Liping the silent killer performed her splendid shot at a crucial point of the match. With much oppression against her way, she manage to got the ball into the net.

4. Meihwa was defeated by Jorris's animated defense and got her ball snatched off! LOL.

5. Joleen performed her accurate shooting skills during the match countless time and impress many. She was the black horse of the day.

6. Jess displayed her graceful dance steps even in the midst of playing basketball. Trust me, there was not a time where time slowed down, but when the ball came near her, her graceful steps automatically slow down the game like if you're slowing down a basketball video.

7. Bingquan fake his way throughout the game by performing splendid layouts when he keep saying he can't. The bluffer.

8. Not forgetting our star player of the day, Joycelyn Sim, as usual, amazed us with her graceful and power shots throughout the entire game. She manage to hit the board from half the court. All thanks to the prata training.

I love PSPT. lol.

Genesis Jorris 4:08:00 PM

A life of Choice Versus A life of Calling.

The crux of the topic lies in:

Whether at the end of the day, your life be nailed to regrets, or fulfillment.

You need to know where you're heading.

You need to be clear of who's your leader.

There's a freedom in life, yes there is.

But a small mistake can results in a lifetime of agony.

The worst thing that can happen, is when you don't even know.

Do you choose the life you want?

Or do you live a life that's suppose to be the way it is to be?

Will it be at the end of the day,

laughters, joy, smiles, if you get what you want all the time?

Or will it be at the end of the day,

you've taste the bitterness of the life that you are called to lead,

but you too taste the sweetness that's really meant to be.

Lead a life for Jesus.

Genesis Jorris 11:16:00 AM

Pride may lift you high
Yet it drains your life

Confidence

It's not only about leading your life with your head lifted high
Putting others down does not make you exceptional
It only magnifies your insecurity and lack of confidence

It's because you're worried that others are better than you
Therefore, all the more you put in much effort to suck their confidence in themselves

A confident man walks in humility
His speech is encouraging, affirming, inspiring
The presence of his confidence is alluring
You can't stop yourself from fixing your eyes on him
He is attractive, beyond physical measure

Confidence is meant to lift others up together with you
and not to make others feel that they are insignficant, small, pathetic
God created confidence in man to support one another
And not, for the sake of competition that suffocates the soul of the being.

It is a depressing confession that in this secular world
Many do not understand

Let's be confident stewards of the Lord
To be filled by the confidence in Christ Jesus alone.

Genesis Jorris 4:53:00 PM

Growing up as a 20 something.

Things are becoming different.

Wider perspectives.
More responsibilities.
Greater burden.
Perhaps more opportunities.

I can be "crazy" at times,
mixing around with the young
Yes I am young still,
but things becoming, different.

You will know it in your heart.
Gradually
You grow with time,
you age in your experiences.
It's a process of maturity.

The way reactions burst out from me,
are no longer the "over-the-top" expressions and rash decisions.
Sometimes in the past things just came bubbling out,
Im guessing some of you know what that means.
Perhaps because after being through more things in life,
you don't react in that way anymore.
You tend to stay calm? Nothing can't be solve. Chill.

Growth is so amazing.
and Growing is even more amazing.
The way our physical body age with time is marvellous,
somehow can't understand within years how can all these changes happen.
And the way the mind and soul age is powerful.
But the difference is,

Physical body age to frail your soul.
Your Mental body age to strengthen your body.

How amazing,
is God's creation. =)

Genesis Jorris 11:27:00 AM

周年记念日：理工学院崇拜聚会管理小组第一周年

许多感叹，

不知该从何说起。

我很庆幸能与这个特别的小组结下密切的关系，

从而当中我学到了许多，许多。

我们拥有过悲伤，快乐，

疯狂的笑声时常围绕在我们当中。

紧要关头，

大家皱着眉头，

面壁思过？

开个玩笑。。。

我感谢主赐给我美好的机会，

在这个环境里成长。

让我看见了许多我以前看不到的人生道理。

一年很快就过去了，

还不知我们还有多少时间能奉献于主在这方面。

也不知以后还有机会吗？

我现在唯一的希望就是超越自己的能量，

做好自己的本份，

呈献本深为一个荣耀于主的仆人。

请赐与我们力量,

我们需要你的领导。

感谢主。

Genesis Jorris 2:13:00 PM

Fast.

Pacing. Panting. Pacing. Panting.

Brushes through.
Can't see a thing.

Freaks me.

Scary.

Yet beautiful.

Stop. Look. Stop. Look.

Something's hidden.

Bubbles.

Picture.

Meaning.

Expressions.

Pause and think.

Beneath the random abstraction

There's a blossom soul.

Genesis Jorris 4:36:00 PM

As you have spoken in Genesis 9:13,
I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth.

Even when the storms are intimidating,
the wind got into my eyes,
the rain caused my blurry vision.
I may be shivering,
all alone perhaps with the ice-cold raindrops falling on my head.
Perhaps I am so afraid,
uncertain whether can I reach the other end,
without giving up on this tough journey.
The cars at the side that's going the opposite direction,
and I do sometimes have a thought of jumping into one,
and just get back to where I came from,
at least I will know where I'm going, than aimlessly heading for something,
that I have not seen, in this cold wide storm.
The thunder scream into my ears,
sometimes I do get a shocked,
I do feel like crying.

It's not easy.

But yet when I recall,
that I'm heading for your rainbow after the storm.

I know, it's worth it.
Your covenant, I pursue. This race, I'm gonna run.

Genesis Jorris 5:38:00 PM

Live to Please God Alone.

So many things
So many thoughts
Circumstances just won't budge
Keep coming, like a rushing wind
It's blowing sand into my eyes
Irritating, painful

It is a time that you must learn to live
and please God alone

You, only You I will serve.

Genesis Jorris 2:01:00 PM

It is really a time that I don't even know how to put into words anymore, God I know that this is something that I must learn and grow and overcome. Challenges, so many of them, coming in my way, like they are about to attack me. I am in great fear, am uncertain of what to do, am so stretched with my own limitations, am so desperate. God I need you. God I really need you. This is a time that God I know I can't do it without you. Many things happening, I need to focus on you.. I need to depend on you.. I need to draw strength from you.. I need to ask for your assistance in my life.. I need you to build me up!

God, as I faces all these things in my life, I ask of you to bring me through.
Please bless the circumstances in my life. Help me to be able to learn from what you are putting me through, that every single incident surely have something install for me to apply in the future. Please guide me oh Lord, I am young and ignorant, I need your wisdom and knowledge in order to know what's right and what's wrong, take me to the correct path and not let me wander off in my own decisions. Forgive me if I disobey or have ignore your directions. God I need you to be my leader, to lead me into your promise land and not let me continue to roam around the desert.

Father I need your presence, I need your spirit. I need you to bring comfort to my insignificant soul. I am trembling in fear, let your spirit calm me, let your spirit bring stillness in my heart. God I want to reside in you, God I want to stay within your embrace. Not let me get too far away from your covering, but let me remain in you forever as it can be.

Genesis Jorris 3:26:00 PM

And the care group turned out to be awesome.

Well at least, I knew that it weren't because of me, it was God.
And I am glad that God filled us with His spirit, in our care group.

Facing a challenge, and a privilege.

I am both honored and in fear.

There is a winding road that I am about to take,

from far I see the storms and obstacles that's coming against me.

I am in fear, that's indeed.

I am worrying, for I am not sure do I have the innate stability to hold on.

Will I survive?

Will I honor the Lord?

Will I pass the test?

Will I reach the promise Land?

Will I...

I made a prayer in my heart during altar call..

I told God, I want to be use by you.

Let me be your vessel.

I know, who am I? But God if I found favor in your eyes, use me.

I am willing.

I am willing, though I am uncertain of will I be able to overcome.

The only thing that I know, is that you're the overcomer of all things.

Let me stay close with you and not depart from your word,

surely you will pull me through.

I am barely on the edge,

but you are barely off the edge.

You are my God.

Genesis Jorris 11:04:00 AM

Counting down to Caregroup: 09-10-09

It's a heavy afternoon, and evening to come.
Was informed that my leader will not be at caregroup this evening,
and so I was given the opportunity to lead and plan.
There were mix feelings within me.

1. I am very excited that I can plan for my own caregroup!
2. I am just so uncertain about what's going to happen next.

And I recalled what I read yesterday:
The biggest obstacle of all in serving God is, FEAR.

It's not your limitations, it's not the circumstances, it's FEAR.
Often because we are fearful of trying things out,
we misses the opportunity to perform to our very best.
It is really not about whether do we have what it takes,
but it is about stepping out of our comfort zone and not let FEAR get a grip on us.

I realise that it is not about whether I am capable a not.
I have plan caregroups before isn't it?
I have shared to a group of more than 50 people of a workshop hadn't I?
It's not my first time sharing about giving to people am I correct?
Then why am I hesitating?

I started to think through and realise Im on the wrong track.
I'm afraid that I cannot perform as well as my other caregroup members.
I had in mind all along, they are great leaders! Who am I?
I am afraid I will just mess things up and be lost of what to do.
And if that happens, what am I gonna do?

haha. And I think I'm laughing at myself now.
The thing is: I hadn't even try. I hadn't even attempt to do it with God.
I hadn't. All because of FEAR!

I jump out in faith and planned my sharing:
DONE IN 15 MINUTES. Woohoo~
It's not about the planning part, it's about the walking on water!
It will not be about me, it's going to be about Jesus.

I pray the sharing be fruitful and great.
God, open our hearts and stir in our minds.

LOVE U!

Genesis Jorris 4:04:00 PM

Post-Mission Trip: Changed for something BIGGER.

God is faithful and good.

And indeed, in just 5 small days,

God had changed the hearts of 5, those who were there will praise the name of God.

He touches on different aspects of our lives,

He searches the hearts who desire Him.

He break the wounds of those who are hurting,

to heal the core issue of the superficial pain.

It was an enlightement,

It was a great time of enjoying the presence of God.

Indeed God had reveal many lessons for us to learn,

and He have spoken to each individuals in such great details.

Praise Him.

With this trip, it serves as a beginning.

That I am changed, for something Bigger.

God is going to do something great,

and let my heart continue to be broken for His purpose.

Guide me oh Lord,

I need your strengthening and direction.

God is good.

Genesis Jorris 11:46:00 AM

11th Day of Fasting: Mission trip to Serdang
The day to which I realise: In 1 more day something BIG is happening.

Time flies really fast.
In just 1 more day? I will be off flying over to Serdang.
I am having this, pre-mission trip frets.
Heard of pre-marriage frets?
Those incidents where.. No matter how well the wedding is planned,
the bride will still go crazy and start fretting right before the wedding begins?
I'm sort of experiencing that now.
Just that the difference is,
I'm not getting married. Im going for a mission trip.

This is the part you really knows that your preparation,
is never enough to make a good mission trip.
It's really not about what we've done,
it's about what God is going to do.

Im not so sure what's in store for me,
but I tell you it gets harder not to panick,
when the day draws near!
God, Im still gonna put my faith in you no matter what,
but pleaseeeee help this faint heart of mine,
it's gonna jump out anytime.

And actually,
grandpa met an accident a few days ago.
While the peeps came to my house for some self-cooked dinner,
and fellowship round television watching F1 finals.
I thank God He gave time for my grandpa,
cause I hadn't got the chance to say God loves him.

The souls are wandering all around.
What are you doing?

Genesis Jorris 9:35:00 AM

9th Day of Fasting: Mission to Serdang
The test of Consistency & Excellence

My Heart beats in the tempo of Praise

For the Lord have done something great

In everything He clears my path

Upon my prayer I trust in Him

For in this trip I sense relief

He stretched my faith to Him alone

I know He's there, and will always be

Complete this walk just You and Me

I may be lost of what to do

But You salvage my mind in Yours

In Your way I put my trust

Even when the road seems tough

I'm holding on, not letting go.

God did a great work in yesterday's Mission Meeting,

and I believe He is moving in the hearts of the goers.

I really thank God for the moving of His spirit,

and I thank God for His leadership in me.

It's just, so many things happen but He never fails to peace my heart.

You will know that He's trustworthy when everything starts falling.

Trusting in Him is the best thing to do no matter what.

Cause He's the only one that will not fail you!

I am awestruck.

God?

I think I'm loving you even more.

Thank you.

Genesis Jorris 1:04:00 PM

7th Day of Fasting: Mission to Serdang
The trip of which God open my eyes to the things unseen.

Mindset.
The way he change my mindset.
This flexibility, this kingdom-mindedness.
It's to be drill into me in the next 10 days.
Im tasting the test.
It's pushing its way, piercing my skin.

Pain.
Like a needle poking through.
And it's not the kind that you kid around with.
Those thick needles.
But they impart something that's positive.
At least I know that.

Im seeing things.
Im seeing the weakness of human beings.
That at times when this nature of human comes in our way,
God salvage it with His character, His guidance, His spirit.
Things work out.
With His spirit.

Im stretched.
Things just won't go according to what we plan.
So, this is where God set Himself in.
The Lord.
So He's just so good at it in making you desperate for Him.
Can I laugh at this?

haha.
He's good. Really good.
Good at telling me: "See? I told you. You can't fathom my thoughts."
And then He'll follow up with something else, more infuriating:
"Now, with nothing on hand, walk on water."

So. I just got to step out of the boat if I want to walk on water.

Still I'm excited for what you're going to do again.
haha.

Genesis Jorris 1:02:00 PM

Burdened.

My heart is sinking.

There's so much more that needs to be done.

There's so much more that can be done.

There's so much more to come.

When I look upon myself

I see a small being who's limited in my doing.

The limitations:
My strength, my drive, my ability, my knowledge, my scope of influence

You can't say much about it. They are just, so small.

So small.

Who am I that I am called to lead?

Who am I that I can serve in such a great measure?

Who am I that I am used to make a difference?

Who am I that the Lord of all the earth,

would care about anything about me?

I am pampered. I am touched. I am amazed.

Because the more I see how great is he and how small am I,

I am convinced of His unconditional love for a undeserving me.

And all the more I am burdened.

I want to give my best. I want to try my best.

I want to contribute in every measure that I can.

But my faith is so small.

My carnal nature cripples me.

I procrastinate.

I laze around.

I thought about myself.

I want to enjoy life.

What's this burden about?

I cry over my ministries.

It can serve in a bigger way. God, how can I make a difference?

How can I see to it that it can be a blessing in your church?

I am so small. What more can I do?

I need Him. so badly. Badly. Badly.

Ushers.

Makeup artists.

Stage managers.

Floor managers.

Team leaders.

Care group members.

Mission trip team members.

Serdang brothers and sisters.

You put these people in my life for a purpose.

And a reason why you put me in their lives as well.

Use me.

Break me.

NO MORE JORRIS. ONLY YOU.

I don't want to hold back again and again.

I want to see MIRACLES.

I want to see the lame man walk.

I want to see the dead man rise.

I want to see the red sea opens.

Ushers convicted for the holy purpose.

Floor Managers working closely together, and growing strong in the Lord.

Stage Managers leading the service with your spirit.

Makeup Artists inspired by your presence.

Mission trip members stirred to be a global Christian.

Serdang Service moves in quality and in your guidance.

Care group growing in unity and love.

MORE MORE MORE.

Crying out for you.

Break my heart. Let this not be another rash proclamation.

Let this be an eternal conviction.

Forever praising.

BREAKTHROUGH.

Stretched. Rebuked. Changed. Grow.

Only you can do this in me.

And so, I pray.

Genesis Jorris 12:48:00 PM

My first Conflict @ Work.

Today is the day that God teaches something and challenge me with something at my workplace. I got to admit, Im not really happy now and my heart is sinking. There's some anger here and there, felt unjust, felt not deserving of what Im facing now. Holy Spirit prompting me to cool down, reflect, and learn from what that has happen. Hmm. Well! This must had not been an accident.. but something God planned.

Ever since yesterday late afternoon, I can sense a fire burning between my HR Manager and me. Well, I should have realise that a conflict is about to take place.

And here comes. A blunder took place. The agency gave me some information that's not clear enough regarding VISA Application, and so I pass down information that's not complete. Finally, was reprimanded by her that I did not check properly.

Lesson learnt:

1. Attitude
I was sort of having some attitude towards her cause I don't like the way she handle things. Don't like the way she talk to me. I kind of avoid her and don't want to look at her when I reply her. Though I'm still doing things for her, without fail, but not really with a heart that's willing. Just doing it because Im afraid of losing my job.

Where's my fruit of the spirit? Im not loving her weakness, and Im not having peace in my heart. In the first place, it's totally FINE that she rebuke me for things that I need to improve. Why do I look at it with such anger? I should look at these comments as areas for myself to grow further.

2. Meticulous
I need to be more careful at work and give my 100%. Got to realise, my first week at work was definitely much alert than now.. I should have sense the danger setting in: which is Im becoming more complacent with my work attitude and performance. I got to be more meticulous in my job to perform better! Spirit had been prompting me.. I had not been alert enough to realise and yet continue to allow my focus to get interrupted by other things. I may not be very busy at work, but got to learn to give my best still in whatever I have on hand.

3. Pride
It actually came in and hinder me without me fully knowing it. Or perhaps, I don't want to admit it just now.. But now that I reflect, i was actually being prideful. I wanted to argue that the fault lies in the agency, but not me. Truth, is I play a part in the blunder. I am not careful enough and was just anxious about finishing the task. I kind of don't want to accept her comments of my faulty area and just think that I don't deserve this. Truth is, I should learn from whatever that is commented and figure out why would this happen. She wouldn't scold me if in the first place I don't place a part in this.

cool down.. and listen. There's so much more to learn. =)

Genesis Jorris 11:52:00 AM

Year-End Goal for 2009:

1. Clear all my Debts (Study loan to be cleared by June 2010)
2. Finish reading 3 Books as of now
3. Bless Hope Serdang Student Team in Service Team Mission Trip (and be bless!)
4. Catch up with my old friends
5. Teamhope - Mega Camp' 09
6. Image - Xmas Combined Service & Special Services (ESSes)
7. Learn stage Managing (from shuzhen)
8. Explore Caregroup Leading
9. Bring a Friend to Church
10. Rise up new Leaders

Handing all these in Jesus's hand.

Genesis Jorris 10:13:00 AM

How can I stop thanking God who perform miracles again and again in my sight.

It's like,

when there's something you're really glad it took place,

but never expect that it could happen to you?

That kind of experience, I'm just so bless that I don't even know how to describe.

I really still can't figure out why God gave me the chance,

guess that's why they always say: God's mind you can't fathom.

So many times I tried to argue that this is probably a coincidence,

because I just can't find any reasons in any possible way,

that I could deserve this?

Well in the end I sort of understood,

it's not about whether I deserve it or not, because not matter what,

we still fall short of His glory.

It's just, you know, God? When He says you deserve, you will deserve.

Nope, not because of your deeds and your life led in purity,

but simply because He is a great God that loves you beyond your inadequacies.

Today we had our second Ushers' Tutorial.

It was a tough journey proceeding for this class.

Amazingly, God places in my heart a stillness to trust in Him this time round.

When I was informed of the bad attendance and the TP-ians cannot be around,

I was a little discouraged but God told me to be content and cherish the few.

Soon after that I was told Europe room that I've booked was taken up by somebody,

I nearly freak out, but I leave it in His hands and He made a way.

On the day itself my image assistant, Joleen message me she's having sore eyes,

can't turn up for the image workshop for ushers.

God provides, and Evangeline came to my rescue to assist.

When Yen See out of nowhere found her laptop locked and the ushers' clip saved in it,

God bless me with a willing soul who went the extra mile to complete the task.

With so many other things on hand,

my work, my short term mission, my family, my seminars,

God gave me a really supportive floor manager, Suquan, that coordinate the entire class.

It is hard when we climb the steep walls of the mountain.

But when we reaches the tip of the mountain, the reward is magnificent.

I really hope all our new ushers who came were blessed and learn much.

I pray that our current ushers who came were refreshed as well.

Like to take this time to give thanks to a few individuals:

1. Suquan

Thanks for everything. You've been a really great support and I'm very glad to be working with you in building a strong usher ministry of POLYDINS! Let's use our ministry to make a difference, not only in our church, but even to external events! Let our ushers be a salt and light for many! Your initiative and enthuasiasm impresses me. Keep it up and continue to give your 101% even after you cut all your hair off! Happy recruit-ing!

2. Emily

Hey my lady.. Thanks for your willingness to serve your best in the ministry. I guess this is your first time giving a teaching in Ushers' ministry? Great attempt! I really appreciate the effort you've put in to prepare the teaching. Just want to encourage you, that God will use you in a great extend, both in pastoral and ministry! Let God challenge you to great heights, and allow your faith be put in Him to see it through. Love you!

3. Ruth

My chubby cutie! Ha. Alright you're not really chubby, I just find those peachy cheeks really lovely. Hey! Although the briefing for the games is really short, but I can see that you've improved! I'm seeing a ruth that's more confident, keep it up! You know what, I believe that with a heart that desires to honor God, God will definitely open doors for you. Put your trust in Him and depend upon Him for growth! Set higher goals! Gambate!

4. Yen See

Hey gal.. What can I say? I really want to thank God for the fact that you're really willing and sacrificial for the ministry. On top of your busy work schedule, you still make time for the clip and lyrics. Let's continue to improve! Although P&W was cancelled, I do see that you have plenty of room to improve and excel. Don't give up, and be consistent in your commitment to God as an usher alright? Walk right with God.

And thank God for all who came! Love all!

Genesis Jorris 1:32:00 AM

Simple Joy.

The thought of that I am in heaven,

cleaning the wings of my father's angels,

how sweet would it be.

A simple life just me and Him,

of course not forgetting my bros 'n' sis,

how great would that be.

Often I imagine and dream about life after this,

a life that is free from all that's holding me back.

Wouldn't that be amazing?

How I long to return to His side,

while His hands caress the sides of my hair,

comforting me when I'm afraid of the cold.

But yet I know somehow He says,

a simple joy I put in you,

you can enjoy if you desire.

Listening.

Genesis Jorris 5:13:00 PM

Like a little blue bird chirping on the browny tree trunk,

indulging in it's little own world,

laughing off loudly like nobody's business.

Im that blue bird now,

kind of happy, in a stupid but glad way.

I'm like getting a little booby-poopy,

there may not be such a word in the dictionary,

but let me just explain the meaning..

Hmm. It means I'm just so glad with my life, like a little child!

Nono.

It's not being ignorant.

It's not that I'm living in a princess world and everything is so lovely.

It's not that everyone loves me like some queen in the air.

It's not about having my life perfect.

It's just this sweetness that God left in me,

after since we exchange this mutual promise of love to each other.

Attended weddings, or heard of the love stories of those chirpy couples?

It's sort of similar, just that this is a divine love between God and me.

It can happen between God and you too!

It just turn your whole world around.

It makes everything different.

You can just keep smiling non-stop on the bus for 1 hour journey,

looking up into the clouds in the sky and the trees everywhere.

I really did that, and I'm doing it still.

haa.

God, me, love, glad.

Genesis Jorris 12:29:00 AM

The GC and Combined Service have come to an end.

I am glad I endured the test and held on till the very end. God had indeed planted plentiful of testings in this phase of my life.. My patience, my joy, my purpose, my dependence, my strength. All these I give thanks.

God had been really good to me. Moulded me, strengthen me, encouraged me, helped me.
Even though the going gets tougher,
I am assured that He will not depart from me,
but will stay even closer with me,
to make sure that he's there to hold me up when I fall.

At a thought of this is how much God loves me,
my heart is sweeten and I am so pampered.

At times I am really so disappointed with myself.
For times and times again, I fail God.
And times and times again, He forgives,
never fails to love me unconditionally.
God is really good.

Recently, God places an unmountable burden in my heart.
A burden for the church, for the people.
I do not know where does this burden leads me to,
but I believe God has His purpose,
and I shall patiently wait for His calling.
And there and then I claim the caregroup,
the caregroup he spoke of to me in service.
God?
Use me. I am your broken vessel.

Genesis Jorris 9:46:00 AM

I have to say that I am now undergoing a metamorphosis by God, Jesus, Himself.

What a blessing, but what a stretch.

It's like the illustration Ps Simon have brought up in the teaching in GC today,

of how a beautiful and expensive diamond comes about from a black carbon raw material.

It had to undergo hundreds and thousands of years in pressure beneath the earth,

and when it is extracted out from the ground,

the diamond extravation team brings it for moulding, shaping, polishing.

I am very exhausted. Very stretched in a way.

In fact, I can literally experience the physical dryness in my body,

after having late nights and early mornings for almost 3 weeks, not a day to be missed.

With my first time leading Image team,

and my first time hosting international delegates from 2 different countries,

I am indeed thrown into the sea and asked to build a boat from where I am.

I broke down in tears of surrender to God in the evening,

and it was assuring to my heart, it brought comfort.

I am so limited and I know my inadequacies, but God still use me.

Ps Simon was saying: Tell yourself, I am a diamond.

And indeed I was thinking, I may be a black carbon right now, ugly and useless.

But you will make me useful and valuable with your metamorphosis for my life.

And something strike my heart today..

Will you still serve when nobody appreciate what you are doing?

Will you still serve when you're giving so much but yet there's no reward?

In my surrendering, I prayed hard against this area. And I can sense the devil's trap within a fine line next to my conviction. Indeed, it is easy to give in, easy to compromise, easy to take the easier way out. But I am sure of one thing, God will not be pleased.

In my prayer I ask of him, build this message strongly into my head, let it not be forgotten, lest' I neglect my purpose and direction. Help me to remember my servanthood, help me to remember why did I serve in the first place. Not for appreciation, not for reward, but for your church.

I need strengthening. I need anointing. I need empowering. I need the word of God. I need Jesus.

Genesis Jorris 1:21:00 AM

Squashed, trampled, stretched, splitted, moulded, shaped.

You make me your strawberry milkshake.

Genesis Jorris 6:52:00 PM

Stations of Life.

We take trains of different experience,

like deciding upon the paths in our life, we picked the driving vessels.

We got on board, and gets to have an eye opener on this vessel we've chose,

nevertheless, it does not seems to be always what we expect.

Life can become like an activity we do everyday,

waiting for the train to arrive every morning to bring us to our desired location.

It's ironic sometimes we gets impatient over a moment of life,

just like how we start tapping our heels when the station states 3 mins more.

We get sick and filled with lots to complaints regarding this life we're on?

Maybe because we get squeezed into the middle of the train by the crowd...

Or perhaps somebody step on your toe, or places his smelly arm pit over your forehead.

Who to account for the blaming? Probably the one who chose that vessel in the first place.

But at times, life can become a passing journey of beautiful stops,

always enough to capture your attention, and gone too soon.

You get a seat right next to that wide window revealing the bright blue sky,

sometimes it's sweet to get inspired by the scenery the train passed by.

It's the same journey, yet taking some time to focus on what's there,

might just change the entire experience.

Interesting. I hope it's not just a SMRT thing, I'm making a train to life analogy.

Im on board.

And Im ready to anticipate what kind of scenery God is going to bring in my every stop.

Though at times I get frustrated with the smell in that train,

and often I am irritated by that guy next to me who keep stepping on my toe..

And of course always complaining of the reason why all seats are always taken when I'm wearing heels..

I still can't wait.

I know something is going to happen.

IN MY TRAIN.

Not yet regretting, and never will I, I believe. =)

Im on the earth-heaven line! Not the Circle Line!

Genesis Jorris 1:32:00 AM

Maybe some of you thought I've crucified my blog,

but the fact is I was fasting from bloggin. Ha.

Now have returned!

Wow~ Many things I want to share with all of you.. It had been a refreshing journey I walked with God in the past 1 month or so, so much to share that Im not so sure how am I going to start. Maybe I'll just start this off by saying, God is Good.

The past weeks as I embark into a spiritual battle field where I pray and fast for a spiritual breakthrough, God really answer. It was a divine encounter in my life and I've never felt so close and so near to God for a long time. It was a spiritual revival, a total enlightenment and realisation. God have never been this real to me in my life, and I thank God He loves me this much to do all these for me. I am really awe by His love for me, speechless in a way I will say.

I begin to wonder at times, why is God so good to me! I guess the only reason I can find is, God is a loving God, isn't it? Ha. We all know that God is a loving God, but to what extend? When we learn to open up our eyes to see, our senses to feel, our ears to listen, our heart to be touched, we will begin to experience the deep measure of God's love, profound and inifinite. I was amazed by how much he actually loves me, and I am very humbled by Him because I know clearly now, all the little things He is always doing for me, always being there, always ready to embrace me. It's really not about me, but Him. He have shown me a great deal, and I got to say, I have more reasons now to praise and worship Him! God is indeed an awesome God.

I had been shower with plenty of blessings recently, and I got to share this, God is the one who owns all the credits. All these while, I am very convicted in my heart that God is the master scheduler for all these things happening. It is Him who have been blessing me, and I know now more clearly than ever, when I follow and run after Him, He will not shortgive me. As the verse says, seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all will be given to you as well. I submit myself to His authority, learning to focus on Him than on my own strength and abilities, God bless. I got a wonderful job, with a pay that I never expected, with colleagues that are wonderful, many opportunities and exposure, potential training provided, great benefits. Who can it be but God? Definitely not me myself who have earned this, cause this is a divine opportunity, I know it.

Coping with ministry drive is really not easy, furthermore, I have to cope with leading 2 different ministry. Praise God He blessed me with great and supportive leaders in usher ministry, who led well and the ushers are receptive as well in giving their best for the ministry. Image was really barely struggling at the borders, but God assist and make the whole thing turns out well in the end. Thank God for all the people in Image team, despite how busy they are. On top of this, Im given the opportunity to lead the entire Image for GC and Combined Service! I am very blessed to have this honor even though I am not experience in this. Got to pray really hard and ask God for His strengthening and anointing. I pray hard that God will use me greatly in this measure to support the service and the conference performances. Have to also cope with changes, in structure, in my group, in my sheeps, in my life. If not for God whom I will depend, who can I seek? Only Him!!!

I need Him and will always need. I love to be in need in fact. I love to be in need of Him. =)

God is great, amen!

Genesis Jorris 1:51:00 AM

I fast,

I failed on the first day.

because of Prata at 1.10am.

I prayed,

He says it's okay,

try again.

I fast,

Broke fast without knowing.

Came out snacking on Ham around 3am,

realise it only after I've taken a bite.

I repent,

he said don't take it to mind,

why not let's do it again.

I fast,

satisfied that I didn't feast on carbo or supper,

rejoice with myself that I restrain myself from temptations.

Slept and gave myself a pat on the shoulder.

I prayed,

realising something is missing,

but I do not know what it is,

I ignored it.

I fast,

somehow compromising when I saw the bread with curry.

Ate a little bread and thinking it should be alright,

since Curry itself will be weird to drink it as it is.

I repent,

God rebuke me and gave me an insight.

See? This is the result of depending on your own strength.

It's not going to work. Try again.

I fast,

during my lunch I ate all the ingredients,

except for the mountains of rice in each packet I receive.

My parents once again scolded me.

But it was different this time.

I prayed,

and my prayers I gave thanks because He helped me to react wisely.

I was able to fulfil my fast and not end up in blows with mummy.

It's true I need Him.

I fast,

and forgotten in the evening when I munched on freshly baked bread.

It was so nice that after realising, I continued stuffing them into my mouth.

I repent,

feeling so guilty and upset with myself.

He somehow tell me, let's try this again until you get it right.

I may be failing, but I am not quitting.

I want to be like Peter.

At least He tried to walk on water, while the others didn't even tried.

Stepping out of the boat, Here I come.

Genesis Jorris 6:29:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak